Into The Wild

The month of May was a very crazy month. I was out of work all month. I had car problems which caused me to have financial problems, because I spent all my money on trying to get my car fixed. So I am practicality penniless. Living on my moms couch.

This has caused me to contemplate my life. It has left me wondering about where I am headed? What is my personal legend? Does God have an adventure planed for me? Am I destined for a life of holding on tightly to the nothing that I have? Will I settle for a life of quiet desperation? Racking up more and more debts. Constantly in and out of work. Or will I some how pull out of this tail spin?

I dream of great things. I want to be a minister. I want to be a missionary. I long to travel the world and to preach the word of God and see it change peoples lives.Will I live a life of impact? Will I settle for a lukewarm existence? Will I live the average middle class life? Will I travel to China or Iran?

But I kind of feel like I am afraid of the wild. I am worried about the unknown. I like the safety of previous experience and knowing that things can't go all that bad. But to live the life I want I must live by faith. Which requires doing things with out having any idea how they will really happen.

Thank you Christopher McCandless. Alexander Supertramp you have been an inspiration.