What Should I Do?

I have been suffering from a severe malaise for the last couple days. I think its from a bunch of poor decisions I have been making. I chose not to go to my spanish class a bunch of times. I didn't mail in my unemployment forms. I have been putting my own desires in front of my relationship with God... It kind of goes on and on. So I fluctuate from a overwhelming since of woe to a simple malaise.

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To ape the magnanimity of love,
And smote himself, a shuddering heap of pain.
-George Meredith Modern Love

There is no where, and no one. Solid is the wall of emptiness.
Dreaming of...
trying to scale the...
hoping to vanquish...
Striving to maintain a condition that can never be met
I yearn for a piece of contentment
Longing for? at least in theory
the conditions to be satisfied
But really for the demands to terminate

Wharol beat out Michelangelo for the title of the greatest Western artist of all time

“Art has changed over time. We’re looking at things more simply now. We live in a fast world and we don’t always have the time to soak it all in. Warhol was the first to really embrace the advertising mentality which has come to define our culture and shape our understanding of art. That doesn’t mean that art is shallow, it’s just different.”-AK47

Its weird the newspaper posted my Grandpa's Address in an Aritcle about his case

My Dad's Horoscope from the Day his Dad Died

Avoid ill will. Do not permit it or any other undesirable mood to disrupt your usually enthusiastic vigor for life and your calling. Be logical, cheerful.

Its weird this seems like some old fashioned advice that an unthinking person might give someone who just had a death in the family.

Crime Scene

My Grandpa's Killer is up For Parole

Cops Want Cop Killer Kept Behind Bars

CHICAGO (WBBM) - A group of Chicago police officers will be in Springfield today when the Illinois Parole Board meets to decide the fate of a convicted cop-killer.
Richard Luckey will be 80 years old next month. 35 years ago, he shot and killed Chicago Police Officer Robert Wenzel during a traffic stop on Lake Shore Drive.
Luckey and his passenger allegedly had been making plans to pull off an armed robbery before they were stopped.
Sgt. Patrick O’Malley is among 27 officers appearing at the parole hearing and says the group wants “to make sure he serves the time he was sentenced”, 75 to 150 years.
The Chicago Police Department moved to two-person squad cars after Officer Bob Wenzel’s murder on a dark January morning in 1973.
Sgt. O’Malley says it’s especially important to keep alive the memory of officers killed in the line of duty. When Officer Bob Wenzel was killed, he left behind a wife and two children.
The Chicago Police Memorial Foundation organized the trip to the parole board.

The radio report

Its weird. I never met my Grandpa because this guy Richard Luckey who was on his way to go rob someone. Whats also weird is the guy is 80 so it seems like logically why not let the guy out. Then I think about how of how I feel about my other Grandpa and how much I would love to have known Bob and never want Luckey to get out. It's also weird that his last name is pronounced Lucky.

PS My Grandpa Killer died June 28th 2011.