High on good food and the love of friends

Tonight i brave the poring rain to be at my best female friends birthday dinner. It was a great for me cause it showed me a little more how much i love her. There was no thought at all of not going. Even though there where other things that i needed to get done i arranged my day to be there which isn't something i usually do.
Then it was cool to get to hang out with her and her other good friends. To think of old times and talk about the future. Plus we went to the cheese cake factory which was great i had half a bbq chicken salad and half a wasabi ahi tuna. It was delightful my belly is pleasantly full. I know I need to go work out but it was the type of food you dream of all food being like.

Coolville

it is always great to be thought of higly. When people think you are cool it does something for your ego. I think no matter how yindie you are it is still nice to have people like you. And it is even ncier when the right person says it. So I feel especially complemented some of my friends have been spreading this weird rumor that I am cool.

Coachella Line Up

I have been waiting, checking the website hoping, everything short of actually praying since December that this information would be released and like so many things that you long for it has left me disappointed. But like every year there are bands I have not listened to that I will check out before the show.

Walden Quote

I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived... I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion.

I am in the State of Amazement

Val Kilmer had a book of poetry published in 1988. On Amazon the average cost of his book is almost $1600.00 per copy.

The Book That Might Get Me Fired

I am completely head over heals obsessed with this book. It is getting in the way of me working. It is amazing.

Vexed By Speculation

The ball of anxiety is crying out to me. I am locked in a loop of worry. I pray for my mind to change. I cry out to the LORD for help. But voices only briefly subside. I hear conversations that haven't happened and ones that haven't happened yet.

Feeling friendless in a mad mad world. Hoping to help but foreseeing ruin. A reproduction of the big bang but in reverse. What? Wishing no one had ever split the atom. Do nuclear reactions need to be messy? No,but they always put off a lot of energy. Why oh helium why oh lithium must you fall apart? Will the ball win? Can I hold up to the pressure?

Why is speculation wrong now. That is how we figure out the world. We are smart. We can deduce things. I am only sad that some of our ponderings are true.

TAO

Co-worker 1 ( on the phone): "What does t a o spell again?"

Co-worker 2 (to co-worker one):"Its tou" then laughs at coworker one in a way that implies it is completely obvious.

This is funny to me because in high school I learned it was pronounced Dào. But in fear of a pointless argument and looking like a super nerd I kept my mouth shut. Now I will just look like a super nerd online.

The Revolution Continues

Viva La Revolucion

When I was in high school I dreamed of a great socialist revolution

I would wear my "Rage" Che T-Shirt bought at the mall and fantasize about changing the world

Today Revolution the revolution being on Salary and writing poems with out my boss seeing

2008: Year of The Ant

Proverbs 30:25
Ants are creatures of little strength,
yet they store up their food in the summer

Proverbs 6:6-8
Go to the ant, you sluggard;
consider its ways and be wise!
It has no commander,
no overseer or ruler,
yet it stores its provisions in summer
and gathers its food at harvest.

For me 2007 was a year of transformation through adventure. I went into the year with complete freedom ready to conquer. With Gods strength being claimed as my own. Over the year I have tried to save the damsel, conquered a new land, criss crossed across America, became a lost boy, and journeyed to the center of the earth. Through all this God showed me his amazing grace and shone his providence on me.

Through all the things I have learned during 07 and all the places I have been I see that in 08 I must do a lot more gathering and storing. Both financially, physically, educationally and spiritually I need to do a lot of work. There is so many things I need to do to set up for the winters to come ( a thought that makes me shudder). My hope is that I will be setting up for even greater harvests but only God know what the future truly holds.